I feel like a fraud. An athletic fraud.
I am wearing a shirt that says“I tri like a girl so tri to keep up” on the front. On the back, it says “fast.”
I’ve competed in two triathlons. The first as a part of a relay team where I swam. The second all by myself: a swim, a cycle, and a 5K. You can read about it on a previous blog post.
I still don’t think of myself as an athlete.
I’m not fast in swimming, cycling or even running.
I’m recovering from a hip and shoulder issue that has required almost weekly trips to the chiropractor for the past few months. And a realization that I have one leg shorter than the other.
I’m not sure if I will be able to run again. So far, this shoe insert has helped keep my hip in place with walking and daily life. Now, I’ve slowly started back with sprints.
I’m hoping my shoulder will be strong enough to swim again. My chiropractor is now working on breaking up some icky scar tissue that has developed because my shoulder was compensating for my hip issue all these years.
I want to feel confident cycling again. I haven’t been on a bike for quite awhile because of a cancelled class and my injuried hip.
I have continued to lift weights over the past few months, which I know has made me stronger. Who wants to compete with some bench presses and Romanian Deadlifts?
I’m hoping I can feel strong enough in my mind, my hip and my shoulder to compete again this summer.
Maybe then I will consider myself an athlete. But right now I think I’m a fraud. An athletic fraud.